Lucifer

misunderstood

dark muse

poetry fuel

Uriel’s foil

you risk

i am

in Michael’s shadow

hold my hand,

cliff jumper

ignite me,

my brilliant

hidden angel

next time

demeter holds

the space

until

we meet

again

persephone

listens

right moment

timing

trusting

your absence

sweet black

heartbeat stars

hades lover

grips

releases

the goddess

finds

your breast

again

release

looking at the

cheese cake size

cardboard box

armoire stuffed

mother dust

ashes, not you

you said

sprinkle me

visit me

by the river

down 5th avenue

the plaza

saks

sheboygan

lingerie shopping

a japanese restaurant

take me

where you will go

love’s messenger

two, red lovers

anointed

with come to me

i carved the hearts

the longing

the heat

made a circle

of ten white

and lit them all.

the room was on fire

with my petition

my desire

sweet almighty

Aphrodite

grant me

an equal, hot sex

a soul mate

who makes me soar

communion

infinity

the two of pentacles.

Mercury,

my bad boy messenger,

my trickster,

please send

my message of love

as below

so above.

an’ it be thy will

so mote it be done.

love spells on a mercury retrograde

i forgot to use purple instead of red

when you were retrograde

old lovers like bad pennies

crawled out from under the blue

i thought i had measured the damiana

when the god spun around

and spit you out on my kitchen table

horrified, i forgot the messenger

could shoot me three times a year

when i poured the honey over the petals

and carved a question mark next to my name.

it’s me, not you

how unbecoming

unattractive,

this jealousy

you are making too

reading

too much

your imagination,

honey.

let’s not get serious

free love

special friends

i had a meeting

chores

court

a gig

i need space,

a trip,

to find myself.

so what’s

your problem?

personals

you think i’m

vulnerable 50 plus

deperate, open souled,

heart sleeve,

poser prey

disposable

victim.

you must be

charming, lying

50 something

runaway,

heartache,

stay safe,

Mr. Right

predator.

fantasy,

con games,

masquerade,

peek-a-boo,

timewaste.

IMing

Hello, old friend.

I said I am not even

We used to fuck.

Who are you?

Just another liar

Who broke

My webcam heart

Over the phone.

Can we try

It’s my first time

Ever

I swear

It’s our secret

I’m so ashamed

So many special

Friends.

Can’t you jerk off

On your own?

comfort me

ignored
overlooked
denied

your lies
helped me sleep

in pain
in love
love hurt

my fear
kept me stuck

romance
has its smell
and i  knew
it was dark
so i waited.

no

are you sure

it wasn’t just

rough sex

went too far hands

not a leg

screaming

you knew him

down my throat

suffocate, throw up

can’t breathe

hand stuck

in my throat

dying, last rites

no air

did you ask him to stop?

let him in

made tea

sobbing tried

please stop

ripped apart

knew him

you wanted it

didn’t you?