yahrzeit
January 9, 2011
dreaded anniversary
like your death
anticipated surprise
when can i call you again
corner of my eye; open arms
cannot be measured with a clock
under the cover tears mark
temporary losses
i carve
my third white candle
mother, your name
above 2 other angels
for you to greet
bimini road
December 1, 2010
since Poseidon’s thunderbolts
my prayer to be a vessel
my body charged and brilliant
ultra pink jellyfish lanterns
your voice just beyond
stone after stone
Cronus’ son
our wall, my home
beyond the black seaweed
ancient, indigo fish
the shells have age spots
my heart
white, near death
Zeus’ brother welcomes,
jolts, gives birth
Atlantis my due north now
Venus rising
missing demeter
September 14, 2010
face half missing
you pass through
my pores, my breath
neroli, peach
my room’s
lilac
the light switch
your calm again
carnation sounds
ylang ylang
the phone again
empty
sandalwood drawers
your bergamot, orris
evening gowns
now rose
i am old
without you
you were 8
September 11, 2010
15 mile rock
shaken, cracked,
the never silent
still
shattered undead
a hundred noiseless
march, whisper, listen
inevitable other shoe
barefoot asphalt pilgrims
spill bodies crashing
jumping, scrambling
escape
tower groans
blood puddles
abandoned cars,
heels, buses
frozen
i walk to you
near death
August 24, 2010
blue eyed fury
make believe father
brick to my head
possessed no angels
who then?
choke, your skin
my bloody breath
a picture of your daughter
dashboard gasoline thoughts
truck stop 76 last supper
soaked unaided screams
die alone last wood rites
light me on fire wish
naked clothes pile
transient never missed
nodoz popping family
serial truck
i live
mother’s day
May 7, 2010
earth grips,
pulls me
heart first
spins, sucks
fistfuls of dirt
not you
Hermione’s screams
ashes on a bookshelf
i clipped 3 locks of your hair
and keep them in a box
ma’at cries
March 12, 2010
not my daughter
blood stained
hands
choked
not my laws
breath gasping
priestess beneath
your scales broken
imprisoned
feather soul
not my justice
the goddess
raped
climb now
and be weighed
next time
February 20, 2010
demeter holds
the space
until
we meet
again
persephone
listens
right moment
timing
trusting
your absence
sweet black
heartbeat stars
hades lover
grips
releases
the goddess
finds
your breast
again
impossible love
February 9, 2010
your letter
unanswerable
words
make believe
grief
absolution
contrition
artificial heart
my loneliness
shower sobs
apartment wails
impossible love
attempts
now
stranger,
not my father
release
February 2, 2010
looking at the
cheese cake size
cardboard box
armoire stuffed
mother dust
ashes, not you
you said
sprinkle me
visit me
by the river
down 5th avenue
the plaza
saks
sheboygan
lingerie shopping
a japanese restaurant
take me
where you will go
